Ghost Everyone and Focus on YOU
Taking care of ourselves is one of the most neglected tasks in our lives. Its absolutely crucial yet we as adults will find every excuse in the book NOT to take care of ourselves. I have crashed and burned a few times over the years due to not taking care of myself. Luckily along the way a few friends have graciously chewed my ass, picked me up, and set me straight. I cant tell you how many times I heard "I need you to be ok and straighten up". Not everyone is open and willing to discuss mental health, emotional roller coasters, and the crap storms we face. We are all scared of judgement from someone. Reality is we all handle things differently. I've got years of storms and what I see is a small storm others ask how hell I get out of bed every day. Since 2017 and specifically 2019 I have learned to walk away. I have learned not to care. Recently I have felt defeated and surrounded my storm clouds coming from all directions. That was when I realized I needed to just stop and focus. Last Sunday I attended church for first time since March and it felt amazing. Sitting in God's house felt peaceful. Forgiveness and trust were the base of the sermon that day. I am not perfect and don't claim to be but I try. That's all he asks of us. I scheduled a vacation for myself - yes ALONE - by myself. Part of me is thrilled and part of me wishes I had someone to go with me. I know that I need this though and I need the time away to reset. We get lost in trying to be what we see as the "norm" society sets for us. Whatever hats you may wear in life; mother, daughter, wife, aunt, friend, employee. Its ok to fall apart and we need to remember that. We need to humble ourselves and remember we are human. Sometimes the lessons we are teaching others by falling apart and not hiding are the greatest lessons we ever teach. I need the reminder to "ghost everyone and focus". Its ok to have it all together, its ok to fall apart, its ok to just be human and retreat to what makes YOU a better person in YOUR eyes. How you choose to survive and get yourself back on track is nobody else's decision. Be the friend that jerks a knot in somebody, the friend who is willing to say what needs to be said, the friend who will hold a hand in the dark. But remember to be the friend when the sun shines too.
